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TV Broadcast #1295

Just As I Am

July 30, 2017

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Transcript of message from TV Broadcast 1295 -- taken from Closed Captioning Text

— Brother Phil Endow: Do you know when we come to Christ—when we really are born of His Spirit, when we really come to Him according to the Gospel, there is an absolute identification with Him and what happened to the point where what happened to Him happens to us. There’s a lot of people who would love to have His life and His blessing upon their lives. They love the resurrection part, but they’re not so much interested in the Cross. Yeah, as long as He takes care of all my boo-boos, let’s just blow right on by that.

Do you know what that Cross means? Jesus did not simply die in my place, although that’s true. He died as my representative. Do you understand the difference? Because now I am invested. I am coming to Him. There’s an acknowledgement in my heart—I deserve what He got. There’s a shame of what I am to the point where I absolutely resign. God, that’s what I deserve. He is going there in my place, but in His going, I am going. Oh God, do I need deliverance! How can anybody cry out to God for deliverance unless they know the depth of the need that they are in?

( congregational amens ).

We sing the song, “I was like a seaman washed over into the sea, struggling in the water with no one to rescue me. And then I cried, dear Jesus! And he heard my plea. He came down…” I forget the rest of it. “…And rescued me.” Praise God! Have you ever felt the weight and the shame of what you are before God? Has it ever really dawned on you?

I’m not suggesting that everybody has to have the same experience and all this happens in exactly the same way, because every one of us is completely unique. God deals with us in so many ways. Sometimes, it’s a very obvious thing like this testimony I referred to. That man just came to such a place of shame. I don’t deserve this. Oh God, this is wrong. How could you deal with anybody like me? Don’t you know what I am?

But in some sense, that’s a reality every person who comes to Christ has to come to. I have all ideas that there’s people who come and hear us sing about the Cross and the Blood, and they just don’t really quite connect with it. If you ever see yourself through God’s eyes, it will change everything. It will change everything.

The greatest thing God could do for somebody right here is to cause you to fear for your soul. Sometimes, that’s what it takes. Sometimes, God just gently reaches down and draws a heart with His love, and they know. But it isn’t like I’ve got to really convict you and convince you. But there’s others where God just has to break that strong stubborn will. They just will not come to that place of…you know…the song we sing, “I come broken to be mended….” I can’t think of the rest of the words.

But anyway, there’s an utter brokenness. I have nothing. I just come, Lord, because you’ve called me to come. There’s not a thing I can do for myself. Oh God, I’m just utterly without strength. My God.

You think about Paul. You think about the proud Pharisee that he was and how he was fully confident that his law keeping and his religious profession was all that it took for him to be right with God. He looked down his nose at everybody else, thought he was justified in killing those terrible people who followed Jesus until he met Jesus one day in that supernatural vision. And suddenly, he was the one.

The Lord began to break down that resistance in him and show him that he was God’s enemy—that every inclination which had been trusting was a lie, that he, Paul, needed a Savior, a deliverer. So he was brought to the feet of Jesus.

You know, I remember some time several years ago, somebody took me to task for saying something. It wasn’t somebody here. And I was talking about Christians, talking about what we are—that we’re sinners saved by grace. And they just didn’t like that. They said no, we’re righteous.

Well, there’s an amazing paradox, because the apostle Paul, toward the end of his life, had served God with all of his might, given himself to God, learned not to trust in himself, told Timothy that “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners…” But he didn’t stop there—”…of whom I am the worst.” (NIV). He didn’t say I was the worst, and he saved me. I am.

So the paradox is that in my flesh, in what I am naturally, what good is there? None. Surely there’s some. Think of all the good things I do. You know, it can’t be that bad. But Paul came to the place, God taught him. God brought him to that place.

You know, even people who come to Christ and really come to Him, sometimes their natural make up is, oh God, I want to give it all I got. But it becomes a form of legalism where I have got to constantly deserve His acceptance. I have got to gear up my will to please Him, and then He’ll like me, and everything will be cool.

Well, Paul tried that, didn’t he? He gave it all he had and found out his batting average was zero. I wanted to good, he said, and evil was present with me. And the bad things that I didn’t want to do, I wound up doing. Oh God, deliver me from this body of death! He found out that there was no good thing that dwelt in his flesh.

That’s the paradox of the Christian is that what we have naturally, this natural makeup is still just as wicked as the most wicked person we could see walking around. But yet, when we bring that to the Cross and our heart is to turn from what we are and to be delivered from that, because we have seen it for it is, then we have a Savior who’s able to put that to death.

( congregational amens ).

That’s what His Cross meant. It isn’t just that He died for us, it’s that we died with Him. We were buried with Him there.

( congregational amens ).

That was a foreshadowing of the complete and total deliverance, because God’s only solution to what’s wrong with me is to put me to death.

( congregational amens ).

There’s no solution other than that. You cannot fix what’s wrong in here or what’s wrong in you. It cannot be fixed. God didn’t come to enhance your life here. He came to give you a brand new one. Praise God!

( congregational amens ).

Let’s look at a scripture in II Corinthians chapter 7, I believe it is. Paul had written to the church there about many needs. It’s obvious that believers don’t jump from what they are as sinners to saints. In the practical sense, right away, he had to really teach them and sometimes exhort and rebuke them because of things that they had done. And so now he’s referring back to the results of what he had said in verse 9.

It says, “Yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation…” Is that plain? “…and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.”

There’s a lot of people who when they are confronted with the truth of what they are, there’s a sorrow there. They’re sorry they got caught. They’re sorry they can’t do as they please and get by. They’re sorry that there is a judgment coming one day, and they’re just trying, or they’re trying so hard to figure what the boundaries are. How far can I go? But you see the spirit behind that—it’s flesh being sorry it can’t give full expression to its own wickedness.

I tell you, when God convicts a human heart, it is not to grind us into the dirt. He convicts without condemnation, because Jesus didn’t come into the world to condemn it. He came to shine a brilliant light upon our true need and offer us hope and salvation. Praise God!

But the pathway to that is one of a genuine sorrow, a genuine shame. Have you ever felt ashamed of what you are in the sight of God, I mean really come to the point almost where you say how could God…how could He possibly love somebody like me? I know there’s many of you who have felt that. I pray that others who haven’t will.

Like I say, young people grow up in the church, and they live lives that are kind of sheltered and kind of, you know, maybe some good principles. Well, that’s great. But there has got to come a time when God confronts your heart with its real need. Until that happens, you’re just religious, and God wants to bring you to the place where you feel that need.

He knows how to do that, doesn’t He, JP? He’s one who grew up in the church and came to young manhood and didn’t get it. Then one day, God just really brought Him face to face. It wasn’t at a service. It wasn’t at an altar—just brought him face to face with what he was and with his real need. And he suddenly saw that without Jesus, I’m lost. Without His mercy, without what He is able to do supernaturally for me, to rescue me, I am a goner. I deserve what’s coming. I’m a hopeless sinner.

This is not just theology. This needs to be something that is a conviction of the heart. You think of what happened on the day of Pentecost. What was it that caused so many people to come to Christ that day? Was it Peter’s brilliance as a speaker? Was he so able to captivate them with his rhetoric and his great ability? No. All he did was look them in the eye and tell them the truth. He said, God sent you a Savior, and you crucified Him. You have made yourself His enemies.

Now, think about who it was that he was talking to there. This was a Jewish feast. This was a time when people came from everywhere where the Jews had been scattered. There were people there that day who were from 17 different nations. There were many different languages, anyway, that were represented, because the Jews over the centuries had been scattered, and they lived in many communities, and many of them never came back to Israel itself.

And so on the feast days, many of them would travel there and be there for that occasion, so these were people who had put their trust in the Law of Moses that God had used, really, to lead them to Christ. That was the purpose of it, not to save them. They were religious people. They were righteous in their own eyes. They were doing what they thought was right, and here they are finding out, I’m God’s enemy. I have been deceived. I have been blinded to what He is trying to tell me.

But how do they come to know that? God blew right past their defenses and convicted them in their hearts. There was a knowledge that came to their hearts, because God put it there. And their arguments, all their defenses were not enough for the conviction of God’s spirit. Peter didn’t have to give an invitation. They said, men and brethren, what must we do? What do we do?

What did he say—just believe in Jesus? Repent, and be baptized. Baptism is a symbol of dying. You’re laying down your life. You’re giving up. You recognize the futility of your life in this world. Yes, we still live here, but this is not what it’s about. The futility, the corruption, everything that is wrong, and you see yourself as one who needs a rescue that only God can provide. And so you cast yourself upon Him and upon His promise. Oh, does that make grace amazing?

( congregational amens ).

Just like that man’s testimony when he was…Lord, I don’t deserve this. Lord, You’re making a mistake here. Don’t You know what I am? Feeling the deep shame of the way he had lived. The Lord didn’t make a mistake, and He didn’t make one when He called you either. It’s not about what we are that earns us anything.

( congregational amens ).

Man, we have nothing to boast about except Him. I can boast in what a great Savior I have.

( congregational amens ).

Oh, praise God that He was willing to look at somebody like me. Have you ever felt that? Has it ever dawned on you what you are on the inside? Or are you just saying, oh yeah, I know I’m not perfect? Oh my God! If that is ever really touched, it will change your life forever. You’ll stop being religious, and you’ll start just surrendering and trusting Him.

“My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness. I dare not trust the sweetest frame but wholly lean on Jesus name.” God has sent as a Savior who’s able to take somebody like me and turn me into one of His children who can live with Him forever. That’s a miracle!

( congregational amens ).

I’m guilty. I’m helpless, and He does it anyway. That’s the revelation. That’s the gospel, folks. I don’t know who’s here, who’s gonna hear this. There’s so many opportunities God has given, but I tell you, the Gospel is…you cannot pass this by. I have all ideas the Lord put this in here for more than just as a passing comment—though you are evil. It’s a reality. It’s something that has to become real to every individual until you see the danger you are in without a Savior.

The problem is not modifying your behavior—changing that, fixing it, giving you a list of things to do and then okay, I’ll accept you. This is not a problem of what you do. This is a problem of what you are. Until we come to that realization and say God, you’re gonna have to do it, you’re lost.

You look at the people in Matthew chapter 7. So many went through a gate expecting Heaven to be at the end of the way. It was broad. There were a lot of people there. They got to the end and they found out they weren’t accepted. They said Lord, Lord! Haven’t we prophesied in Your Name? Haven’t, in your name, done many wonderful works? I don’t get this. Lord, we’ve been Christians all our lives. We’ve never missed in Sunday school—perfect attendance, Lord.

He said depart from Me you that are lawless, you that work iniquity. You adopted religion as a defense against your own corruption. You’ve tried to paper it over. You tried to cover it over. You wouldn’t deal with the real issue and say you are a lost, hopeless sinner who needs a Savior. You wouldn’t come through that narrow gate. It’s not very popular. But there’s no other way, no other way to the tree of life except through the flaming sword. The flaming sword is something that kills. I need to die, but I have life. I have His life. Praise God!

( congregational praise ).

Praise God! I know many of you share that. All I can do is put this out there and say Lord, it’s your Word. You promised it wouldn’t return void or empty—it would accomplish. If you’re one that’s never faced that, I pray that this Word would…I was going to use the word haunt you, but it would stick with you, that it would come to you in every quiet moment and just point you to Christ, point you to your need first.

Because if you don’t come that point where you need…you know your only hope of anything is a Savior, is giving up, surrendering, giving your entire life to Him and trusting Him, letting your life go and become His. Until He brings you to that point, you’re lost. There’s no other way to put it. I’d be lying to you if I told you different. God can bless you. God can do a lot of things, but this is the issue right here. This is the crux. You can’t get pass the Cross. You can’t bypass the Cross and get the blessings and the life and the hope and all of that stuff.

Thank God for the Cross. Because when you really see what you are, you see something you don’t want anymore. You want to be rid of it. You want to be delivered from your sins. That’s what repentance is. That’s going another way and saying I don’t dare go that way anymore.

Do we have battles? Oh, yeah. You better believe it. Is that a process of learning how to appropriate the death that we died and to say no and to appropriate the life that we were given by faith and saying I can do this through Christ who strengthens me? Yes, that’s the work of a lifetime, but apart from that, what resource do you have? You’re trying to overcome flesh through the strength of flesh. Good luck. I said it before. It’s like trying to pick yourself up by your boot straps. Gravity holds the whole thing down. I don’t care how strong you are, you are not going anywhere. That’s the way it is in the Spirit. I need a Savior. Do you?

( congregational amens ).

I tell you, if we get this, it changes everything in our outlook. We learn to have compassion on people because we know we’re the same at heart. We know we have the same need. We can’t look down on people and despise them. We can have that same compassion that Jesus had. We can love our enemies and pray for them with His strength. We can be patient with one another. We can correct one another without this hard fist judgmentalism. We can consider ourselves, because we could be tempted too.

There’s so many implications that come out of a real knowledge of what we are. I have all ideas that God…I know God put Paul through what he went through so that he could truly have compassion on the people to whom he ministered and give them hope. He was just as human as they were. He felt the same things they felt, but he knew where his strength came from. He said we have no confidence in the flesh—none, none.

That’s a real revelation. Do you? You need to wake up if you think you do. If you think you could act your way into Heaven, you can’t. You need a Savior. There’s only one way to have it is to lay down your life and surrender. Praise God! Praise God!